Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Clear Scans once again, Alleluia! Hannah had a head MRI on Tuesday afternoon, and we are all clear once again. As I stood with Hannah in the MRI, holding her foot like I always do, I was playing out the scenarios in my head...what if? What if it was all clear? I expected it to be all clear since Hannah has been doing so well and has had no issues. But, what if there was something? So many kids lately have had "something." Even after long periods of "nothing" and "all clear", so many children have shown up with "something" just out of the blue. At this point, it's difficult to put us in the that position. At one point in the past I had everything all set on what I would do, I would jump into action and beat down the new brain tumor. But, it's almost as if I have faded away from that and can't believe that it will ever happen. It's like a safety net I have built around Hannah so that it can't happen. It's not so bad living in this dream, I like it. We don't have to go back until December 14th, wow!

I see it every day. I see kids die every day from cancer. It's really been horrible lately, or maybe I'm just more in tune with it now. It just seems like a lot of kids are recurring and a lot of kids are dying. So many heartaches and terrible stories. Kids do not die peacefully from cancer.

So, are you still with me? Hannah delivered a bunch of goodies to the clinic during our visit on Tuesday. Colby came with us, and was so enamored by a little girl that Hannah delivered a hat to. This little girl was bald (although Hannah informed us that she DID have little wisps of hair) and picked out the cutest pick hat. It was too big for her bald little head, but looked so darn cute on her, her dad though so too-we saw him taking a picture. Hannah really got a kick out of passing out some of the hats we brought. Here she is getting everything ready. This wouldn't be possible without all of your generous donations to Hannah's Cans for Cancer. I plan to do another update soon on all of the wonderful donations we have had recently, thank you so much!

This week Hannah is in tennis camp, so it's off to bed! Enjoy the summer, we are!

♥Kim