Sunday, November 30, 2008

Hope you all had a great Thanksgiving. We sure a lot to be thankful for with Hannah's latest clear MRI. She did really well with the iv this time for the contrast, but with about 10 minutes left to go, I looked in and saw her shaking and crying. We got her out and she said she was very hot. Her face was red and she was upset, but the tech didn't want to move her since she had only about 4 minutes left. If they moved her, they would have to repeat the entire scan, and she had already been in there for over an hour. She was crying that her head hurt and her stomach hurt, but she made it for the next 4 minutes, then we stripped her sweatshirt off, and she calmed right down.

So, our Thanksgiving started out with the Turkey Trot I mentioned earlier here. This is a 5K race and fun walk put on by our PTA to benefit the school scholarship fund, and this year, they also chose Hannah's Cans for Cancer as a recipient. The weather was good and the turnout was fantastic. Over 600 people participated. We all encouraged Dave to let it all out and run this year (usually he stays with us). He came in 21st overall, 4th in his division of 44-49 year olds. He was a very polite runner (not passing people at the end, not wanting to pass the lady that ran next to him in first place for the women), otherwise he may have won his division! Bad hip/back and all, he did great.

Hannah and I gave a brief speech about Cans for Cancer to the crowd then she pulled the tickets for all the raffle winners. I think that was the highlight of the day for her! We rushed home afterwards, heading to Pennsylvania to spend Thanksgiving with Dave's Aunt Rosemary. Unfortunately, she had come down with the flu, and we had to postpone our trip. With no plans for dinner, we headed out to find a place to eat. We were 4 hungry runners. We drove for 2 hours, through towns on the south fork and north fork to find nothing! I never knew that NO restaurants were open on Thanksgiving, not even McDonald's (not that we would have eaten there, but still!) We were the family without a Thanksgiving. We finally headed to the supermarket, they had one left over prepared turkey feast that someone didn't pick up, and they said we could have it! We came home and micro-waved everything and sat down for dinner. It wasn't the same as mom's, but we were happy to have found something.

We have been working on two special things for Christmas that I can now announce to everyone. This year the girls want to do two things to help kids with cancer from Hannah's Cans for Cancer program. First, we are adopting an oncology family this year from clinic. We have not been notified yet of the family, so we haven't started purchasing gifts for them yet. We are so excited about this, and hope to make Christmas very special for a family struggling with cancer who may need some extra help this year.

The other thing the girls want to do is visit the 4th floor pediatric oncology floor at Schneider Children's hospital, where Hannah spent her time when inpatient. The plan is that Dave will dress up as Santa, I will be Mrs. Clause, and they will both be elves. Yes, you can all stop laughing now, it should be quite amusing. We will have boy and girl gifts for all ages and will travel room to room handing out gifts and candy to all the kids. We plan on leaving toys for the bone and stem cell unit children also, but we can't enter that area, as it is strictly quarantined. If any of you out there have any Santa/Mrs. Clause/elves costumes we can borrow for a day in December, please email me.

We had to get special permission from the hospital to be able to go up on the 4th floor. Usually, they do not allow donors to directly give the gifts, due to hospital and state regulations. Also, no child under 12 years old is typically allowed on the floor if they are not a patient or a sibling (I never knew this.) Since both of the girls are under age 12, they will not be allowed to actually enter the rooms, but the children can come out to the hall or the doorway. If that isn't possible, their parent or a Childlife helper can deliver the gifts.

We are very excited! There is a lot of work to do though. We have to select a date for delivery, and it has to be a weekday so we'll have to coordinate with school, Dave's work and the hospital. We already began purchasing some great gifts and got good deals at Radio Shack on toys that we think the kids will love! They were a big hit with Hannah in the store, that's for sure. She played and played with the robots and the remote control jeeps.

As you're probably thinking...these are very ambitious projects. I'm thinking the same thing..but I know we'll pull it off. The thought of bringing these kids a little bit of happiness at Christmas will keep us on track and rolling! With that in mind, we are announcing one more initiative 
Toy Drive

Yes, we are in need of toys, lots of toys and FAST! We will be delivering these toys to the hospital and the family sometime during the week before Christmas, which doesn't leave us a lot of time. We need boy and girl toys, of all ages, but mostly in the age range 6 years old and above. There are kids of all ages on the oncology floor, but not that many very young children. The children were most often around Hannah's age or older. If you are out and about shopping for Christmas, please help us help these kids, many of whom will be in the hospital on Christmas, instead of at home with their family, as they should be. It's difficult to be in the hospital, and especially difficult to be in the hospital on a holiday.


Please consider donating to Hannah's Cans for Cancer Toy Drive this year. If you do not have time to purchase a gift, and could drop off or send a donation instead, that would be appreciated also and will go directly to purchasing gifts for the children. Hannah designed a sign for the bin that will be out in our driveway beginning Monday, December 1st. Please drop off any unwrapped gifts to our Toy Drive box at our home, 1556 Grand Ave, Mattituck. If you would like us to come pick up at your house, we would be happy to, just send me an email or call (information on the side bar on the left of this page.)

I'm off to bed, my head is spinning!!


Kim


Thursday, November 27, 2008

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone. We hope you have a safe, happy and blessed Thanksgiving.

A quick note to say that Hannah's spinal MRI results from yesterday were all clear...NED! She is now one year out and still cancer free!!

Kim

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Just a quick update tonight, because I'm having a bit of trouble seeing the screen. Yesterday, while trying to shore up the garden fence so our adventurous little Tod would stay out, a branch came back and hit me right in the eye, before I had a chance to even close my eye. I saw the eye doctor who said it was scratched, but would be fine. He dilated my eye though, and it still has not gone down all the way, and it's pretty blurry. 

Anyway, we spent most of the day at NYU today for Hannah's screening for a clinical trial for a drug called Aricept. Some of you may know the name, it is currently used for adult Alzheimer's patients. It has not been used in kids before. It is specifically used for attention impairment, but rather than being a stimulant like Ritalin for ADHD kids, it works in a different manner, specifically beneficial for kids with cognitive impairment due to brain issues like cancer. So far NYU has screened 4 kids, with only 1 qualifying for the study. Hannah was number 5, and did end up qualifying as attention impaired, and met all the other requirements. We have not yet decided to participate. It is a phase III study, meaning it has already passed phase I (toxicity) and phase II (dosage levels) and is in the final phase. This study is being administered at NYU as well as several other places around the country.

Please keep Hannah in your thoughts and prayers for tomorrow. She has her spinal MRI tomorrow, then we head to clinic for her monthly visit. We should had preliminary results by the clinic appointment. Usually, if kids recur with standard medulloblastoma (only contained in the brain), they will recur in the brain first. That is not always the case (King Julian), but nearly always. That's what I'm telling myself, and so far so good. I will update tomorrow after we get home.

More to come tomorrow on many things like a special Coaches vs. Cancer event next week, new Cans for Cancer information, and Hannah's adoption!!!! 

Kim


Monday, November 24, 2008

No Cancer!! Thank Goodness, Tod does not have cancer. From the pathology, Tod has irritable bowel disease. He remains on steriods for now. We have cut his dose in have since he is acting quite lethargic (although that is not a typical side effect from steroids.) I hope that cutting his dose in half helps him feel a bit better.

It was pretty quiet here over the weekend. Colby and Hannah went to Vermont this weekend with their Aunt Katheen. Although Hannah was quite apprehensive about being away from mom and dad, we spoketo her a few times, and she had a great time. They went to a Fresian horse farm today for driving (carriage) lessons and said the place was incredible. They were on the go quite a bit and even got to see some snow.

Dave and I went to a fundraiser for a little boy named Christopher. Christopher has Gorman's disease... which is an incurable disease that deteriorates the bones. His parents are searching nationwide for some treatment that will help him survive, including clinical trials which aren't covered by insurance.

Speaking of clinical trials, Dave and I are taking Hannah into the city tomorrow. The initial reason was to meet with a pediatric psychiatrist who specializes in kids with brain tumor issues. He also happens to be running a clinical trial which is just starting for a drug that helps with neurological issues following brain tumors. The kids on the trial must meet several criteria prior to be included in the trial. Tomorrow is the first of the screening interviews. We are not sure if we would even include her in this study (although it's a Phase 3 trial, so it's made it through the first 2 phases safely), but we thought we might as well find out a bit more information about it.

Don't forget about the Rudolph Roundup for our dear friend Coleman. I'm so sad to see he can no longer walk by himself, it's heart breaking, but his family is now back in Iowa. You can give them words of encouragement at ColemanScott

RUDOLPH'S ROUNDUP

I wanted to announce a special raffle that is going on for our friend Coleman (here is his website.) Wonderful Mimi (Julian's Mama) has organized an online raffle to help raise money for the Larson family to support them for Christmas. As you all know, Coleman has been having a tough time lately, and now he is on a new therapy which works by trying to cut off the blood supply to the tumors. So, they march on.

The boys have received many gifts from friends all over the country, so this time Mimi decided to raise money to help the family. This way, they can use it as they need it for Christmas, treatment, just something special for the boys and their family. I think it is a wonderful idea!!!

If you would like to participate, here is how it works (directly from Mimi):

One entry in the raffle is : $5 or three entries: $10 .
(Maximum 3 entries , BUT donations for more welcome.)
There are numerous gift items for the raffle, including things like Team Unite gear, candles, CureSearch items, and even Coleman and Caden tshirts. The raffle winners will be pulled on the boys' birthday, December 10th.

The $$$ will go exclusively to TEAM LARSON (100%) , please be generous ,we want their holiday season to be as amazing as possible...

You can either mail in the money for your entries and/or donations to,
Mimi Avery
111 Aviator dr
Fort Worth , tx 76179

Or paypal them at mimiavery74@msn.com

If your heart is willing , please include a short (or not) note for The Larsons . Even if you use paypal ,I will print the notes out for them .


I know times are tough for everyone, so do what you feel you can! Thanks to all,

Kim


Wednesday, November 19, 2008

RUDOLPH'S ROUNDUP

I wanted to announce a special raffle that is going on for our friend Coleman (here is his website.) Wonderful Mimi (Julian's Mama) has organized an online raffle to help raise money for the Larson family to support them for Christmas. As you all know, Coleman has been having a tough time lately, and now he is on a new therapy which works by trying to cut off the blood supply to the tumors. So, they march on.

The boys have received many gifts from friends all over the country, so this time Mimi decided to raise money to help the family. This way, they can use it as they need it for Christmas, treatment, just something special for the boys and their family. I think it is a wonderful idea!!!

If you would like to participate, here is how it works (directly from Mimi):

One entry in the raffle is : $5 or three entries: $10 .
(Maximum 3 entries , BUT donations for more welcome.)
There are numerous gift items for the raffle, including things like Team Unite gear, candles, CureSearch items, and even Coleman and Caden tshirts. The raffle winners will be pulled on the boys' birthday, December 10th.

The $$$ will go exclusively to TEAM LARSON (100%) , please be generous ,we want their holiday season to be as amazing as possible...

You can either mail in the money for your entries and/or donations to,
Mimi Avery
111 Aviator dr
Fort Worth , tx 76179

Or paypal them at mimiavery74@msn.com

If your heart is willing , please include a short (or not) note for The Larsons . Even if you use paypal ,I will print the notes out for them .


I know times are tough for everyone, so do what you feel you can! Thanks to all,

Kim

Tuesday, November 17, 2008



Tod is home! I picked him up today and paid the bill (ouch). He is now on prednisone (yes, a steroid), pepcid and a special diet (another ouch).  He doesn't have all of his energy yet, he is usually the first one up when he hears a cracker package, or the back door opening but he has been just laying and sleeping. We can't let him out by himself anymore, yep, just in time for winter. We don't want him eating any more sand or poop or wood or rotten tomatoes. 

We will get the pathology results back by the end of this week to know what course of action to take next. We're all happy to have him home, especially his brother Riley and of course his mommy Hannah. 

Speaking of his mommy Hannah, she has had a very good few days. Last weekend was the fall horse show. It was cold, but it was another fun day. The girls did well again, here is a picture of both of them with the ribbons they won.
Hannah won Grand Champion for the second time in a row. We were so proud of her, and she was so proud of herself. Here are a few pictures of both of our champions....







Kim




Monday, November 17, 2008

Our little Tod is in the hospital tonight. He was still vomiting and a bit swollen this morning, so we were off to the vet again. They took another xray, and whatever was in his stomach had not moved since the xray from last night. The doctor recommended he have a scope to check it out before a surgery. So, onto the animal hospital for a sonogram, blood work, general anesthesia, endoscopy and an intestinal biopsy. The spot in the stomach turned out to be sand, with some other junk mixed in with it. The doctor said there was quite a bit of sand in there, which they flushed and vacuumed out. However, the sonogram and scope showed a pretty bad intestinal disease. He said it is a severe condition, and it is most likely a sign of either IBD-intestinal bowel disease or cancer. WHAT?? I thought I was going to throw up when that word came out of his mouth. My face must have looked very strange because he stopped right there. Of course, it's probably not but he had to mention it.

They took four biopsies from poor Tod, and we should have the pathology back in a couple days. Unbelievable. I hated leaving him there today, but they had to keep him for observation and fluids. They also want him to be able to eat without throwing up before he can come home.

Hannah has been asking if Tod is ok, she misses him not being here at home with us. I hope he'll be back tomorrow.

I did want to mention a few things going on now. If you make into McDonalds in the next few weeks, they are running a special campaign to raise money for the Ronald McDonald Houses around the country. We have never stayed in one, but we know many people who have. I never really thought that much about the RMH before, and once in a while I would throw some spare change in the box at McDonalds. But I have seen close up how families rely on RMH, and how much McDonalds does for these families whose children are seriously ill. So, if you are in McDonalds getting those yummy fries, don't forget to help out and donate a dollar to benefit the Ronald McDonald Houses.

I also wanted to make everyone aware of an upcoming fundraiser for Hannah's Cans for Cancer, the 3rd annual Mattituck Cutchogue Teachers Association Turkey Trot. It is a 5K run/walk on Thanksgiving day to benefit local charities, as well as the annual scholarship fund. This year, a portion of the money is being donated to Hannah's Cans for Cancer. We were so excited when they told us of the plan. Our family is participating and already has our forms in, we hope your family will join us too (if you're local of course.) It's a lot of fun, we have done it for the past 2 years, even while Hannah was on chemo. She just amazed me last year with her determination and resilience. I'm sure I posted it here, I just haven't gone back to check yet. You can read all about it HERE: TURKEY TROT , then click on MCTA 3rd Annual Turkey Trot on the right hand side to print off the application also. Let's do it together!!!

Good night everyone, good night little Tod!!

Kim

Sunday, November 16, 2008

I had planned a lengthy update tonight, I have a lot to report on, however, as Peggy always says, our plans have changed again!

Dave and Colby rushed Tod to the dog hospital about an hour ago. He was throwing up non stop, and Dave thought it looked like chocolate. Then we noticed he was severely swollen, and his belly was rock hard. Hannah and I stayed here, she was pretty upset when he left. She just fell asleep next to me on the couch, and I'm just here hoping and praying everything is ok.

Here are the things I will mention, and elaborate later:
Thank You to all of you who listened to me vent about Hannah's struggles lately. I appreciate all of the advice here on the blog, and also through the emails. I really appreciate that you all took the time to write, research and just lend an ear. We have an appointment set up with a psychologist in the city for the week of Thanksgiving. Not only will he meet with Hannah, but at this time we have also set her up for a screening appointment for a clinical trial of a drug they are hoping will help with attention impairment for brain tumor kids. More on all this later.

Hannah a good three days to end the week that started off terribly. Dave and I discussed that we need to try to gauge her frustration level, and instead of pushing her to the edge and over the cliff, try to refocus her before she reaches the point where she boils over and then can't stop. Maybe it's working, or maybe she blew off so much steam on Monday that she was calm for the rest of the week.

The girls had a horse show today. They both did great, many news ribbons around the house. It was fun, but it was COLD!! Hannah won Grand Champion for her class today, for those of you that aren't horse people, that means first place overall in her division! She was pretty proud of herself, and we were too!

Dave and I celebrated our 14th wedding anniversary this week too. We went to see Shawn Colvin play (anyone remember her? "Sonny came home" was one of her big hits.) It was good, and we tried very hard to stay awake during the concert. Old, yes we are two old people. Colby had a basketball game that night, so Hannah was here by herself with the two girls that came to babysit. they have been here only once before, and although they are just the sweetest girls, Hannah doesn't really know them that well. She informed me right before they came that she wasn't staying here in the house with those two girls. Well, we already had concert tickets, much coordination had gone into making this happen, so in my mind, she was staying :) She was a bit weepy, but pulled through and had a great time with them.

There are new calendars out too to benefit cancer research. Hannah is featured in one month. They look great! Heidi Randall, mom to angel Jessica created the calendars, she is so talented. I'll provide more information on those soon too.

That's all for now, I'll post some pictures later, but I can't concentrate with Tod rushed to the hospital. I have to sit here and wait for them to get back, hopefully all together!

Kim

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Well I've been thinking about what to write, or actually how to write it. Hannah has been struggling. She is struggling both cognitively and emotionally.

Dave and I met with her teacher last week regarding her schoolwork. We have noticed that homework is becoming too much. There have been nights that Hannah has worked nearly 2 hours on her homework. She becomes frustrated after such a long time and just breaks down. Nothing gets done after that. We were told she should be working about 40-45 minutes a night, and after that, she's done. We are noticing this now that the work is becoming more difficult and more fast paced.

Hannah has been going into school at 8:30am each day to work with her aide Mrs. W. They preview work that the class will be doing, so that Hannah has already been exposed to it. They also finish up any work not done during the school day, study for tests, go over times tables, etc. It has really helped a lot, and Hannah's stress level seems to have gone way down. However, Hannah is now falling behind a bit during the day on the classroom work. It's not that she can not comprehend the information, it's that she takes longer to do the work than her peers. She needs more time and more repetition to be able to absorb the material. She already has extra time for tests (time and a half) and she has really needed that. But her teacher also suggested less work load, more time for all tests, including state tests, ranking of homework so that the most important things are done first and worked on for only 40 minutes, working with small numbers, rather than the larger numbers as the work becomes more difficult and no more PT in school, so that she is not out of the classroom for that amount of time. Hannah's neurologist had already suggested no more school PT, and that she do some specific things at home. Hannah has also been evaluated for assistive technology. This would involve any special technological aides to help Hannah organize and process her work. We don't have any results from the evaluation yet to see what their recommendations are.

Hannah has also been struggling emotionally. It seems that when is pushed too far, she just loses it. This can be over too much homework, asking her to brush her teeth, dropping her off at school. We have noticed this for quite some time, but it was rather sporadic until recently. Without going into all the gory details, yesterday I got a call from the assistant principal as well as the school psychologist. Mrs. W. has also been researching information on traumatic brain injury (TBI). The research notes that TBI kids (brain surgery qualifies at TBI) exhibit behavioral problems including not being able to control their temper, not obeying directions, as well as restlessness and agitation. Hannah exhibits ALL of these. And it's getting worse. Sometimes she is totally out of control, screaming, crying, kicking, biting, hiding, hitting, etc. We have tried every approach possible, believe me.

Hannah knows there is a problem. A few weeks ago she called me into her room after I put her to bed. She was crying. She had a difficult time telling me what was wrong. She finally came out with "I'm sad because I was thinking about something. I'm different." I talked with her to see exactly what she meant...different how? Different from other kids, different because there were some things she couldn't do anymore? She just kept saying no. She could not articulate how she was different, she just said "different from before the surgery." She said sometimes she just can't control herself. She can't stop from crying, even though she doesn't want to. She can't stop the rage and anger once it starts. She just knows she is different and that makes her sad.

How is that for heart breaking?

There is more, but I'm ending now for fear of overloading everyone with too much information!

Kim

Sunday, November 9, 2008

More to add later, but a quick note about our friend Coleman. We were just heartbroken to hear that his latest scans at MSK in NYC show growth of the cancer. This now makes him ineligible for more chemo, and for the antibody treatment at MSK also. This is not good news at all. The family is still praying for a miracle, let's join them....

http://www.carepages.com/carepages/ColemanScott/


Kim

Thursday, November 6, 2008


Unfortunately, this has been Hannah the last 2 days. Yesterday, we went to school, but instead of going in, sat outside for 1/2 hour in the car, laying down, hoping to feel better. We came home. She went to bed, slept until 12:30pm and didn't eat anything until 6:00pm.  She seemed to be fine after that and finished all of her homework. 

Today, she ate very little before going to school complaining of a stomach ache even worse than yesterday morning. The school nurse called twice before lunch, and said Hannah's stomach ache was a 9 today out of 10. We negotiated with Hannah to stay through lunch, and I would pick her up if her stomach ache/headache didn't improve. She hung in there and stayed the day, then went to swimming afterwards. She ate dinner fine tonight, and even had a night time snack. 

We added Zantac to her routine tonight. I did give her some this morning, but it did not help. I gave her a pill tonight, then tomorrow morning I'll give her the Kytril at double dose and see how that works. The doctors said we'll just keep experimenting until something works. This could continue for years, it's a product of the tumor site and very common with medullo kids.

For those of you out there that have had morning sickness, it's what I compare it to. Can you image having it for years on end? 

God speed to Aunt Marietta, my mom's sister who passed away this week from cancer (what else??) I really wish I could have traveled to Indiana to attend the funeral, but they all know I was there in spirit. She will be missed by all.


Kim

Monday, November 3, 2008

I just wanted to post a few pictures of the girls from Halloween night. We had a good time, and now have much too much candy at home. It's funny, but I think I'm the only one that hears it calling my name day and night. Colby and Hannah haven't even looked at the bags since they came home!

Kim





Saturday, November 1, 2008

What a weekend it's been. Let's start with today. A very big THANK YOU to all of you who helped us raise $568 for The Smiles for Scott Foundation. Thank you to everyone who sent money, baked goodies and came by to buy from us. Hannah was in charge the whole day, and she did great. Besides all the baking she did, she made signs, organized the table, took photos, encouraged people to come over to the table to buy, and even took a platter and went door to door to the businesses! She is planning on putting a bake sale video on YouTube, so I'll let you know when it's finished. Here are a few pictures from the day. I hope you can read the one of the sign with Hannah's watermelon cookies (her favorite because they taste like the candy cane cookies Mom). The sign reads:  Good kind of dough with chocolate supposed to be watermelon.  I didn't change any of her signs, I loved them!



Hannah very proudly told everyone about the "boy named Scott who died." I even had someone tell me they were familiar with the Smiles for Scott Foundation! That's great!

More on Halloween, school, etc. etc. later. For now, I am signing off to set my clocks back...yeh!!

Kim